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In memory of my brother
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4-18-16
Tried to post yesterday for Happy Birthday but guess it didn’t take so here it is today. I love you. I miss you. Mom
Dearest Matthew,
Yes I know you probably wouldn’t like dearest. So here goes anyway. You have been on my mind a lot recently. More than usual. I sure do hope you are watching over dad and I know he would like that and then ask “why did this happen?” He is struggling a lot at times and once in while does let out a laugh or smile. He gets really frustrated as you know when he cant make me understand what he is trying to say. He tries so hard! I should try and work more on the aphasia but he gets so annoyed. On a positive note the other night he said “I love you” after I told him. We are having our usual Christmas eve celebration her and I know you will be her with us. I love you, miss you and think of you every day. Mom
Dear Matthew,
I miss you. Last night dad woke up in the middle of the night, I thought of you the night before you left us. That morning will never fade away.
Thinking of you with love, Mom
Matt would have loved this one. A demon fetus!
http://www.msn.com/en-us/health/pregnancyparenting/couple-gets-4d-ultrasound-of-their-baby-find-something-unsettling-in-image/ar-BBlC4cB
Hello Matthew, Its been too long since I wrote to you but please note that I think of you every day-and sometimes many times during the day. I know you are watching over us, I feel that. “Keep us safe by night and day”. And now another member of the family has joined you, Aunt Helen. Maybe there will be a box of Fannie Mae candy around somewhere. Loving you, missing you more than you know. Mom
Been a while Matt. Love you and thanks for your help.
Been a while Matt, but not a day goes by I am not thinking of you. For some reason, today is a tough one as I think about you, our family, the love, the problems, the celebrations, the sorrow, more though the closeness we shared during these times. I often wonder where you are and what you’re doing. We all miss you and are continuing our lives with some of the same difficulties, but different in a way, but everyday asking for you to help us get through some of these difficult times, and we thank you, once again for that.
Love you
Dad
The silly Facebook bot thinks it needs to remind me each year that it’s Matt’s birthday. My living memories will always beat it to it.
Dear Matthew,
This should be in comment/memories I guess. I’ve been thinking of you a lot lately and especially at night-during the night-when I can still hear you walking around, maybe getting something to eat out of fridge. Silly me!I love you. Mom
Happy birthday Matt. These few words don’t appear to mean much, but Mom & I will be thinking of you even more than usual today.
Love and miss you.
Dad 4/18/2014.
Dearest Matthew,
So today would be your 42nd birthday. I wonder if you are celebrating with cake-yellow with whipped cream frosting and maybe fruit filling. See, I remembered. I know you are in heaven watching over all of us, keeping us safe. Please know that mom and dad think of you every day in some way. I miss talking with you, always had an answer, “right back atcha”
Love you, Mom
My dearest Matthew
Today, almost to the moment you left us. You were born and placed in your Mothers arms. One year ago, you died in her arms.
I love and miss you beyond words. You carry a piece of my heart today and always will.
Until we meet again, may you be happy and content knowing so many of us love and miss you especially today.
Love Dad
I guess I was caught up in the moment with my post today. Matt of course was born 4/18/72. I wrote the post at about the time he died one year ago.
Matthew, how can I ever explain the loss we feel without you here. This past year has been a struggle for all of us, I don’t think it will get any easier. It’s made me learn how precious life is with ones we love.
Watch over us. Love, Mom
Dearest Matthew,
So many times I have sat here at the computer and tried to think of what to say or write. Nothing ever seems to be what’s in my heart. So finally, today I said so what and here goes. I miss you. Your smile, your laugh, your knowledgeable answers to questions we may have had on most anything. I miss seeing you sit in “your” chair in the living room. And you would have been really excited about the broken water pipes on the third floor that flooded our unit-HA. Valentines’ day came and went, its good I saved a couple of cards from previous years. And somehow, I know that you are watching over us, from somewhere and just maybe keeping watch. Although I wonder if you could have held off on the pipes. Anyway, we have fresh paint in the bedrooms and new carpet on the floor as a result. Life goes on but its not the same and never will be. Memories are all I have to sustain me now and that will have to do. I love you, Mom
Hi Matthew,
I should post this in memories I guess. I was just looking on facebook and Damien has a site filled with pictures from St. Clement when he was in grammar school. Some have pictures of you and I was re-living some fond memories. Dad and I are plugging along here but it doesn’t get any better at times. I recently read somewhere that the second year can be worse than the first-I hope not. Hugs and kisses, Mom
I have not been to this site in a while and it was heart-warming and sad and at times funny to read the entries. I so agree with Paul about the “devil baby” video. Oh, he would be laughing hard. I think back over the last few months and all that has happened since his passing. Holidays, illness, birthdays, water damage, crazy winter – he would have had something to say about it all! I miss you, Matthew. Keep us all in your sights.
I don’t know if any of you saw this, but Matt would have loved the little “devil baby” stunt someone pulled in New York a week or so ago. The first thing I thought of when I saw it is how Matt would be laughing at it.
I remember seeing that. It was pretty funny, Matt would have enjoyed that.
Dear Matt. Mom and Dad have wanted to write sooner but neither could think of the right words.
Today is Jan. 1st 2014. A week ago we were celebrating our first Christmas without you. It was very difficult for your family, but we all knew you were here in spirit with plenty of hugs to go around.
For the first time in several years Mom & I took down the tree that you used to help with when here with us. We miss you so much and words are just too difficult to come by while expressing our love.
On another note, thanks for listening to us when we ask you to “put in a good word” when we needed it, especially with regard to Mom’s recent medical problems. Things are a bit better now, although we may ask for another favor or two.
Love you, miss you more than words can say.
Love
Mom & Dad
Dearest Matthew,
The Christmas season is almost over but I needed to let you know how very much you were missed and thought about and we chuckled about the alien ornament on the tree. Dad even went to midnight mass with me at St. Vincents which was a first in a few years. We honor your memory. I think of you every day. I hope you are standing guard with all my new medical problems. I still keep your baby blanket under my pillow and talke to it every night. I love you, Mom
I am honored to have been invited to share these memories of Matt. I read somewhere that even though the pain will never go away–it is now a part of each of you–you can make a special place for it within you and succeeed in living with it. Matt will always be a part of each one of you and you are all fortunate to be a part of this loving and supportive family. I hope you all have a Happy Thanksgiving and I know that Matt can never not be a part of you all. This is a beautiful and loving tribute to him.
10/8/13
Dearest Matthew, I wanted post this on 10/3, it would be 6 months that you are gone from our lives, gone but never forgotten. I miss you every day especially those times that I read or hear something that reminds me of you. Dad and I just got back from New Buffalo, had a nice time except for the rain and today the sun is shining.
Watch over us as we plug along in life. I love you, Mom
Mom & Dad spent a wonderful week or so in New Buffalo for Mom’s birthday and our 48th anniversary. As usual for the year another milestone spent without you. I looked at beautiful lake Michigan and thought of the great times we spent with you and your brothers over the years. We are so happy to spend these later years together but our family has been separated as of April 3rd, 2013. We miss and love you Matt.
So they say with time, we slowly heal
I caught a flash of your smile, through the fog of a dream
I’ll have a hell of a time, I clearly see
I can’t be by your side, I’ll see you when I sleep
Excerpt from “Gone” by Jerry Cantrell
Dear Matthew,
Does time really heal? I don’t know if that is true. Each night when I say good night to you it gets a bit harder. We have your picture and ashes on the dresser in your room. Just maybe “…it helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star.” I miss you, Mom
I try and try, but I can’t hold back the tears when I watch the photo slide show. I’ve been told it’s not a good idea to do that, but my love for my family is the only reason I survive. So, as long as this site is available, I will continue to watch, and take a moment to visit with you.
Love you Matt.
Dad
Matt. I received a happy birthday kiss from Mom this morning, a phone call from Evan and family, I know Adam will call later. This will however, be the first birthday I do not get a hearty birthday hug from you. I have the feeling though that you are thinking of me today.
I feel you are here with us to celebrate the day with me, and that is what really counts.
Love, Dad
Matt, I miss you so much. Today I cleaned in your room today. I stared at the picture of you from Paul’s wedding, then wiped down the urn. I picked it up, sat on the bed just holding it while looking at the wonderful cards, masses, and some other pictures in there. Still call it “Matt’s room” when talking with Mom. I view the website with pictures and the music. I seem to have “sadness attacks” on and off but also, it sooths the pain in my heart, and feels like a visit with you. Pay no attention to the tears if you see a few. I will never let it go Matt, I can’t.
Love, Dad
Well, Matt it’s Fathers day on Sunday. I say that not for recognition, rather, how every greeting card you had ever given me for whatever, ws so clever. I most often recall the one with the picture of a tv inside with an open transparent screen on it so I could view television and read the card at the same time That is just one of the many memories I will cherish always
Love you
Dad
That is a hilarious card, Dad!
Thinking of you a lot today for some reason and miss you very much. I can’t listen to a New Order song without thinking of you. A guy came into work the other day with an Exploited t-shirt and as soon as I saw it I thought of you.
Hi Matthew,
I’ll have to comment on dad’s note and say “yes, its so true.” Two days ago you were gone for two months. It was a bad day and at times I don’t think it gets any easier. Sending my love and I miss you too. Mom
Matt, I know you are away from us for some reason no one will ever know, but I need you to know you are still here with us always. They say it gets easier over time.
Your chair next to mine is now empty as I watch some of your favorite programs we usually watched together. I can’t remember an actors name and I look to my left, and you’re not there. Mom and I have taken on the chore of cleaning off the dinner table you used to do every day. These are just a few events when I instantly think of you and know Mom does as well.
Our times together will never be forgotten. I miss you and love you.
DAd
Hi Matthew,
Just wanted you to know we were up in NB for the holiday weekend. Adam and Payton were there too for the St. Mary’s festival,Delina had to work. Do you remember the festivals? I’m sure you do. Payton had a grand time on the rides. The weather was a bit uncooperative but we had fun anyway. Adam posted some pictures on facebook. Love, Mom
Hi Matthew,
I forgot to tell you we were in Evansville for Evan’s birthday party on 5/11. On the way down we got into a slight “fender-bender” (it was raining) and made me think of the last trip down there when you got the ticket for not wearing a seat belt. I think Adam talked about it in the euolgy. Missing you, Mom
I love and miss you Matt. Since we went food shopping yesterday, we felt your presence as you always went with us to help loading and unloading the car. Some say it get’s easier as time goes on, I doubt it, or perhaps at some point, it will. Today however,is not. Just a bad day here at home. Your family misses and loves you so much. Until next time, my son, put in a good word, so we will all be together again one day.
Love
Dad
Dear Matthew,
It’s been a long six week struggle but”when someone you love becomes a memory, the memory becomes a treasure.” I love you.
When I saw all the pictures posted at church – a swell of memories over the years from playing in the yard at 952 to this past Easter. I am glad I was able to give him a hug on Easter.
Many fond memories. Most recently remember Matt and I talking about all the strange tv shows that we both watched and were surprised we liked the same weird shows. Had a lot of laughs about them. Will miss that.
My sincere thank you for this wonderful website dedicated to our son, your brother. I will forward to friends and family. What a great tribute to his memory.